Bloemen

Can you imagine about moving? From one country to the another country without know much culture of country where will you living? I did! I am moving from Indonesia to Holland, country what ever come to indonesia as imprealis (hahaha). I come to Holland cause I found someone who love me. And I decide to live with Luc for forever.
Monday, nov 27 2008, it is day when I come to Holland, I come with smile and try to finding my lover there. He come with flower in his hand. Flower! I never had flower bouqet like that. For me it is like film what i always watching, western film or indonesian film to want look like modern (they follow what western do, sometime).
And that day, I know what feel flower from someone who loved. It is unforgettable moment. It is like something what usual here (in Holland) flower for someone who loved for say "welcome in Holland" or something say "i love you very much", but for me it is more than just saying i love you very much........... for me it is more than just saying i love you, i feel that is real, it is true,i am standing in front of him as real, and i hold that flower what he gave to me. I have someone who will understand me, and i see his eyes very close, i know he is love me, like i love him very much. In my heart is i am saying, i will love you forever, and i will to understand you and learn how to be a good wife and a good mother, who can walk side by side and have same level, and can decide what i want without hurting his heart. How to learn be one heart with him, and i know it is not easy. We will find many emotion and not nice feeling if we are fight cause something what we didn't understand each other, yeah we come from the different culture, but when i see his eyes, i know he is someone who will patient (geduld) to me. So in that moment, I didn't afraid to find something what not nice, we will endure it together and I know we have strong defend to endure it all.
With the first flower i had, i see my life..... I will walk together with my husband side by side, in happiness or sickness (but we both garantee, few terrible times and lots of happy times, haha).
Communication...it is the key! It is from Claudia (freind of Luc), she give me spirit to undertanding each other, and she also give me good feeling to start with a new life here. I am more comfortable when have card from her what telling me about good communication. Thanks Claudia.
Flower, I like that flower not cause it is from my lovely husband but spirit from that flower i had, 5 hour after i was at home, the doorbell was ringing, someone come with flower in his hand... He give me flower with card 'to Yayang Neville' welkom in Nederland en veel geluk in je huwelijk...xxx Angela en Cor.................. Luc's mother from Portugal..........
Thank you, everybody.......... words can not express my feeling that time, i just want say... i am happy with Luc..thanks for everything. I am ready to live with you.